My number one goal for this week is to get ungrumpy. I’ve been in kind of a funk for weeks and I need to snap out of it. Baseball season is finally over. I’m free! Michael finally has a car (although it’s not licensed and all that yet, it will be soon). Soon, I won’t be trapped at home without a car! These are really good things but I just haven’t been able to summon up any gratitude for them.
This morning, I tried to remember the things I used to enjoy about the summer, so I can do them and start enjoying life again. I remembered that I used to enjoy mornings sitting on the deck, watching the birds and squirrels as I ate breakfast or sipped my coffee. So, I went out on the deck and sat down with my coffee. A squirrel came to the feeder and sat, watching me as it munched on peanuts. It was nice, peaceful, relaxing…for all of two minutes. Then my neighbor opened his garage door and cranked up his radio. And I remembered: This is why I don’t enjoy outside anymore. There’s always someone playing loud music or running power tools of some kind. Always.
Then I remembered that I have to go grocery shopping today, which has become my number one anger-inducing activity. When feeling this irritable, proximity to other people is unbearable. And people are SO annoying at the Fred Meyer nearest my house, which is where I need to go because I’m out of the birdseed that doesn’t make a huge mess on the deck. There’s just no point in trying get ungrumpy before going there. I’ll go, get my groceries, and then try to deal with the irritability problem.
But how does a person get ungrumpy? How do you not let loud music and the constant sound of power tools get on your nerves? Normally, I would say by spending time outside but it’s just too noisy out there!