Fall is usually the time of year when I have this feeling of peace and balance, like everything is right in my world. This year I haven’t had many moments like that. I’ve been struggling with feelings of dissatisfaction and irritability. Part of it could be the weather. Although we’re having more fall-like temperatures than many places, we’ve been in a warmer-than-normal pattern for a long time. Long spells of mild weather make me cranky. I feel like I need a good storm every once in awhile to break up the monotony and move stagnant energy out. I haven’t read anything about extra pollution in the atmosphere but I wonder if that could be the case because our skies haven’t had that lovely, deeper blue that they usually get in October. Also, I swear the leaves aren’t as brightly colored as they usually are in the fall. Anyone else on the west coast notice this, or is it just my negativity coloring everything?
My unhappiness could also stem from my fatigue. It gets depressing not having the energy to get out to do things. I’m sick of all my energy being taken up by the same things day after day. Empty the dishwasher. Load the dishwasher. Go to the store. Buy food. Go back to get what I forgot. Prepare dinner. Clean up from dinner. Vacuum up cat dirt and dog hair. Repeat. Again and again. I need to get out of the house more but I’m too tired to go out for long or very often. I’m hoping my blood work, which I’m still waiting for, will have some answers.
The most exciting thing to happen around here is that Don finished replacing the hideous old railings on our deck and, last weekend, he finished making me a pergola/trellis thing to hang bird (okay, squirrel) feeders on. I think it turned out great!
It’s been fun to watch the squirrels try to figure out how to get to the feeders. As soon as Don finished it, there was a frenzy of activity and competition between squirrels and Stellar’s Jays.
I also bought the squirrels a corn cob feeder. I was afraid none of them would use it because corn isn’t their favorite food but one of the babies has been eating from it and I caught my darling little Shorty doing a pull up on it.
I wasn’t sure how high to hang it. It didn’t come with directions of any kind. Any advice?
Since I’m already over my self-imposed word count of 500 words, I’d better get to Cee’s Share Your World questions!
Are you usually late, early, or right on time? My friend Bernadette always comments on how I always arrive right on time. I would probably be earlier if a bit of OCD behavior didn’t always kick in right as I’m leaving. Sometimes I check to make sure things are off several times.
If you were or are a writer do you prefer writing short stories, poems or novels? I would like to write novels. I’ve never been a short story or poetry kind of writer.
Where did you live at age ten? Is it the same place or town you live now? From birth to my early twenties, I lived in the small, rural community of Birdsview, Washington. It’s about an hour and twenty minutes away from where I live now.
Would you rather be able to fly or breathe under water? Definitely fly! I would love to be a hawk for a day. Imagine the view from up there!
Bonus question: What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up? Last week I was grateful to hear from my friend Michele. We hadn’t talked in awhile so it was great to catch up with her, even through text. Hopefully, we can get some face time in soon. This week I’m looking forward to the weekend. I hope we have nice enough weather that Don and I can get out to do something. There are so few days left in October!
This is way too long. Sorry! I should delete the first two paragraphs of complaining but I’ll keep it real. Fatigue sucks! But, as always, I’m working through it, trying to not become a grumpy old lady. 🙂